Friday, November 27, 2009

If I murder someone while sleepwalking, should I be punished?


I don't have an answer, but it's an interesting question to ask.  I met a boy a few years ago who confided in my that he sleepwalks.  Already sizing him up as my future husband, with this new information I thought, "Oh my goodness, he could kill me in our bed one day and blame it on sleepwalking." You would think that this would throw a wrench in the fairtale I was creating in my head, but I immediately let it go.  I am only reminded of it now because I came across an article in New Scientist where a man strangled his wife while sleepwalking in their camper somewhere in the UK. 

It was confirmed that the husband really does have a sleep disorder so the courts are debating how to hold him accountable, or even IF he should be held accountable since he didn't commit the crime of his own volition.  And if that is true, that he wasn't in control, or cognizant that he was strangling another human being, doesn't that make him a danger to himself and others? And shouldn't something be done about that?

I keep going back and forth on the issue, but in the end, I am simply not sure if cupability for a crime such as murder should be attached with conscious motor control. If to be guilty you need to be fully aware of yourself, what about the mentally disabled or others that let their "emotions" get the best of them - to the point where there is a physiological change in the composition of the brain? What about them? Should they get off because they weren't fully aware?

And another thing with sleepwalkers, there is no way to prove what they are dreaming about.  In this case, the husband said he was dreaming about intruders coming into their home and he was fighting them off, which explains the attack.  

It's just a big cloudy mess and it's one of those things that make me go 'hmmm'. 

It's 4 AM and it's Black Friday

I'm sitting on my mothers couch reminiscing about the one time I attempted to go shopping on Black Friday and I only have one word. Horriffic. Well, three more - And never again. I love bargain shopping but people seem to go somewhat crazy on days like this. Now that I've discovered $20 bag, I'm not sure I'll ever buy clothes in a retail store again. I'm thankful I discovered that warehouse among a bunch of other things.

I moved back to New York last year to pursue an acting and singing career professionally. This year has been full of blessings and considering I am so new to this, I have been working non-stop. Every once in a while, I realize how amazing that is and every ounce of my being gives thanks to the universe. Now, I can only wonder what is ahead of me. Perhaps I'll meet the love of my life and get pregnant, and get my lucky break?! Maybe? :) Who knows, but I am sure this year is goingt to be just as wonderful if not more.

I am also thankful for my emotional and mental growth. I have seen a lot of inner growth and that makes me smile. Not letting outside events deeply impact me is something I really work on. I hate that emotional rollercoaster or yo-yo feeling. Since I can't control the world, I know I can control my reaction to it and this year I've seen so progression. I don't want to go into too much details, but just believe me when I say this is all good.

This goes without saying, but I'm going to say it anyway - I am grateful for the people in my world. They are so special and in many ways similar to me, in that they seem conscious and strive to be better. Not just in the material world but internally as well and I love that. I love meeting people that are aware of their internal world.

People do lots of things for money. Sometimes I wish I was one of those people that was solely motivated by money, but it's not me and doesn't really categorize my friends either. It's really cool that I attract like-energy. They teach me lots and for that I am grateful.